I'm Not All Around Crazy

Certain people bother me.
Because I'm Kim, I'm lame, I'm geeky, I laugh at my own jokes, I'm weird, I'm smart, I don't hit back. And to them it means they can disrespect me as much as they please.

Someday, when you're working in McDonalds and I'm out there doing what I love, I'll mention you.

But my heart is crying out for something more, and it's driving my head crazy to the point where I'm often restless on Saturday nights, trying to get where I want to be faster. Not in his arms, not with my best friend, not on the top of the world, but on the right track. I need to be there sometime soon. I need to. Or else... I'll implode.

Life Happens.

My life is, in comparison to many others, not going anywhere.

I don't know about you, but I have dreams, dreams that I'm trying to map out, to put together, to tie up. But I can't pinpoint it, the last puzzle piece is missing, the rope is too short. Life is too short to watch it pass by. Yet here I am, sitting on the sidelines, watching you all play. What can I do? I can't really just jump out into the game, can I? No, not really. I guess that means I have to sneak into the game. When I get the home run, that's when you'll all notice I've been playing.
Care enough to know what they are? My dreams, I mean.
I want to film a documentary in Africa. South Africa, Ethiopia, one of those places. Every 3 minutes, or was it five seconds, a child dies from starvation. And it's absolutely crazy, the things the kids and adults there have to go through. I want to, as soon as God wills, go there for maybe a month or two and film a documentary while helping them at the same time. My goal would be to get Disney channel in on this so that Africa's poverty trap can soon be un...trappable?

Now, I'm being hard on myself. But it'll be good in the long run when I pushed myself to the best I could be. I wanna be an actress, Broadway stuff. I wanna be a model, the kind that isn't 100% conceited and head over heals in love with them selves.

Well guess what. So far, I'm No One. So far, I'm Nameless. So far, I'm the average thirteen year old who's got A's and B's in school, who likes a certain boy, who's completely ready to take the jump, the risk, the anything to make life a little more worth living. The only idiosyncrasy of mine is my love of smelling things, making videos, and not talking about others behind their backs.

I'm leaving my fingerprints, don't give up, don't give in.

I know this is photography blog but...

I wrote a poem in english class yesterday and to be quite frank I'm proud of it.
"I wonder what a girl can do,
A girl so small like me and you,
With dreams as tall as seqoia trees
And hands as small as as small as leaves.

I wonder if I could fly,
Just to touch to touch the sky.
I wonder if I could laugh,
Just to make you all laugh back.

'Cause when it rains,
It's full of plain growing pains.
When it pours,
There's unnoticed open doors.

She tells them of her plans,
Expecting warm open hands,
Instead they laugh
So she regretfully laughs back...."


Story of my life:\

Just Dookin'...

I'm partying today(: I'm in the Irish/Saint Patrick's Day mood too!

The top picture is of the sun rising(: then the other picture is of Cupcake. There are just so many different pictures of her...

Well yeah. 

I mean, not all pictures are that good of her, but she's still adorable (I'm not counting that as one of my pictures)

I'm listening to Irish songs ahaha... the song tittled 'Beer Beer Beer' just makes me feel all the more connected to my Irish roots(: ... just kidding.

Ghost cat! Day five

Cupcake! The ghost cat...

So I hope you know that my goal is to have 365 pictures on here by the end of the year, and even though I started two months late, I'll make up for it. I want to be a photographer so I guess, why not start here? I mean even though no one's really reading this right now, I could get far enough if I tried. Yesterday I had a major headache so I couldn't put a post up, sorry guys! But tonight I will. I'm gonna have to think about what to take a picture of, because I'm going to have 365 pictures by the end of the year and none of them can be the same. Well, until then, bye!

This post is for yesterday...

I took this a long time ago but yesterday I couldn't take a picture of anything... so today I get put two posts up here!

Anyway, I love looking in the dictionary for some reason... so that's why this picture is just so... interesting ahah(:

By the way, I'm avoiding pictures that have a lot to do with love... my last blog was just... ick,and you can view it if you click here. Anyway, they're all good photos just not of good topics...

Day four and four pictures! (:

I chose this picture because even though my parents hate the rust I love the detail it adds(: That's my bathroom mirror by the way... I'm not sure how it got rusty...

Even though I took this picture yesterday, I absolutely ADORE it(: I love windows and sunrises. Someday I hope to get a really good picture of a sharp crescent moon... maybe in the summer?

How could I not include this picture??

I took this at dinner... my parents weren't there so I took advantage of that and got the jello. I found a broken spoon and scooped out some jello and... it look like that;) then up in the far right corner are my noodles... with sauce

Third day and lent and four 2's...

This picture was the 2,222nd picture I've taken with my camera(;

So today was Mardi Gras and that means at my church I had to serve food with a couple of church friends and wear a hairnet... number one; I look hideous in hairnets... number two; I am not good with picking up sausage with tongs...

We also had an early Ash Wednesday so I have an ash cross on my forehead... I wonder if ash causes brakeouts:L...

Also, now on topic about the picture, that's my dresser full of... what's it called? clothing(: anyway, I took this at six a.m. this morning and the light is the light from my window... the sun shines right through it at six a.m. Also, in that very dark upper left corner, there's a picture of a little girl praying. I own the picture not the license(; anyway, I've had it in my room since I was about two (I'm thirteen now) and I may take a picture of it someday because it's just so... you know. One of those things every photographer had to take a picture of...

Second day(:

Wow, don't I feel like a pro...

Well, this is my cat, Cupcake. She's a year old. When we first got her we actually got her from my older sister, who'd moved out. She learned the landlord for her apartment she was renting didn't allow pets ["Well you see, what it is is..."] so she gave my family Cupcake. Thing is, I fell in love with this cat. She was, at first full of energy and therefore I kept her in my room most of the time to play with strings and her. Of course, her being a kitten, I was always scratched... But enough about that. My other cat, Hunter, is big fat and black. When I say fat, I'm not even exaggerating. I mean 15 pounds of pure cat, fur, fat, catnip, and Meow Mix. Hunter is also extremely lazy. Sadly, in the year I've had Cupcake, his laziness rubbed off on her. N'aw well. She's still adorable.

BEGINNERS and spell check...

Okay so this is one of those awkward greetings I'm not good at. Am I supposed to address you like my diary? Well I don't have a diary but am I supposed to write;
Dear Readers
          Today blahblahblah totally did...
Is it supposed to be like that? Because I'm just a beginner blogger, if that makes sense. Anyway, this blog, I hope, will be about my... journey in photography, since I'm a complete beginner. As of right now my top five favorite things to take pictures of are my cat, antiques, water, the sun, and drawings/letters in notebooks. I have the FujiFilm XP, and it isn't as great as I had hoped it would be. I guess it is waterproof and shockproof and dustproof and freezeproof but honestly it's not as great as a lot of other cameras I wish to have someday. If you're reading this, thank you. Because I'm not sure of anyone who would actually want to listen to me ramble on for so long(: Anyway, here's a picture for the day:

And Blogspot, I have confirmed I have the license to use this seeing I took it and edited it a small bit on Picnik(: